At the end of the day when my kids are tucked in I sometimes sit back and wonder, "What happened? What did I do today? Did I spend any time really listening to my kids or just having fun with them?" And I always determine to live differently the next day, and sometimes I really do.
But so many days I wake up and I'm running the minute my feet hit the floor. There's always something to clean or a status to be updated or a text or e-mail to return or a meal to be prepared. And again at the end of the day I wonder, "What happened?"
How do I get off this treadmill when there are 4 other people on it with me?
And I want to live more simply, but the masses of stuff I've aquired is like a lead ballon everywhere I look. And it weighs and it suffocates and I want to live free but how do I do it? Because I read my Bible and I pray and I read books and I try to live with the attitude of gratitude and I still feel the same. And I know I can't live based on feelings, but sometimes I want to feel free and really be free.
Deep. Breath.
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