This morning I read in Matthew 20 where Jesus tells the disciples that, "whoever want to become great among you must be your servant"-v. 26 At 7:00 a.m. I said, "Yes Lord, that's what I want. Make me a servant." I even told my kids about it and we prayed it on the way to school.
Well, it's all of 2:00 p.m. and I'm already stomping my feet and saying, "Why me Lord?" Or, "Why not me Lord? You do everything for everyone but me!" Oh Lord have mercy on me! What a whiner I am.
I really do want to be like Jesus. I want to be the servant He calls me to be. I am impatient and want what I want when I want it. And sometimes don't even know what I want, but I want it anyway. I am so like a child. In the middle of my little meltdown I opened my Bible straight to a very familiar page that is highlighted for a reason.
"Woe to those who quarrel with their Maker, those who are nothing but potsherds among the potsherds on the ground. This is what the Lord say- the Holy One of Israel, and its Maker: do you question me about my children, or give me orders about the work of my hands?" -Isaiah 45:9,11
He has an answer for everything. He made me and is making me into the woman I'm called to be. Thank you Lord for not giving up on me. Your grace still amazes me.